I'm so excited...Just 3 more weeks and it'll be our 2 year anniversary...We've had a rough road but we're getting past it...I love you baby,always and forever...

                         -Nicole and Tony "Always & Forever"-

Well guys, it's a new year...2005...new years eve was fun...i hung out with Tony and his family in Chtsworth...and he hung out with me and my family for christmas, so it was all cool...i don't have any new year resolutions...i'll just enjoy life as it is now and think about all that stuff later...me and my brother got a little bored abd decided to take all kinds of pix...but i'm stupid and CAN'T FUCKIN' POST Them!!!God i'm so angry...well, Happy New Year All and to all a Good Night!!!

Well guys, it's a new year...2005...new years eve was fun...i hung out with Tony and his family in Chatsworth...and he hung out with me and my family for christmas, so it was all cool...i don't have any new year resolutions...i'll just enjoy life as it is now and think about all that stuff later...me and my brother got a little bored and decided to take all kinds of pix...but i'm stupid and CAN'T FUCKIN' POST Them!!!God i'm so angry...well, Happy New Year All and to all a Good Night!!!

hey guys...I'm gonna be performing at the CLIPPERS basketball game on DECEMBER 19th...make sure u guys watch it on t.v...hopefully it airs...well peace out and DON'T FORGET!!!!!!!!

Gosh this weekend has beeen so boring...my dad went to neew york for like 4 days and i thought i was gonna party away and have the greatest weekend...u know what I ended up doing...i huung out with tony everyday and baby sat my brother...it was so gay..plus we lost our stupid game on friday...against our big time rivalries sylmar...it was 57 to 27...how lame ha?well, i also hung out with betsy on friday for like 3 hours and we got really bored...so i took a whole bunch of pix of her...i'ma be her model agant and i'm gonna be so rich, yes!!!well much love, luv always, nicole ...

Hey MEREDITH and CRYSTAL!!! If it's the same 2, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I LOVE U GUYS AND MISS U!!! muah , with much love, nicole...

PLEASE READ...IT GETS INTERESTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, guys...it's been a while since i've posted...i've been too busy at gay ass san fernando...yeah i wake up at 4:50, take the mta 165 at 6:10, take the 230 at 6:30, arrive at school at 7:00, have practice at 2:30, take the 165 back home at 4:50, take the 230 back home at 5:30, get home at 5:45, eat, shit and h/w, got to North Hollywood Gym at 8:00, get home again at 9:15/9:30, take a shower, go to sleep at 10:00, wake up and start all over...ISNT THAT A SHITY ASS SCHEDULE...i've been so bumbed out and tired...plus the cheer squad over there is DRAMA!!!

yeah ive come to learn that the cheer squad over at san fernando is so much DRAMA!!!!first of all, the COACH, JV coach to be exact ,is telling us WHAT TO WEAR...not just telling us, enforcing it...we can only wear shorts that go an inch passed our but cheeks, and no shirt's showing stomachs...THEN, i got my nails done, not even long either...and we arent even doing shit, we've been doing cheers for the past 2 weeks...yeah and she tells me that i can never get them again and that i have to go back to the nail place and get them either token off or filed way down...Stupid Ha!!!and the GIRLS,they are all cool and fun and whatever, but....they are all TWO FACED to each other...They like talk to each other but then they turn around and talk all this shit...i dont know it was kinda the same at van nuys but we were at least FUN and got to make jokes and fuck around...here its ALL BUSINESS!yeah well, let me tell you what happened this monday...i'm so FUCKIN PISSED!

okay so JANET, Tony's ex girlfriend...wutever i was a little cool with her but... okay...the coach calls for a meeting and says yeh this girl is leaving and she wants to say goodbye to everyone and wutever and shes like okay JANET come up and talk....everybody was like "UH"-shocked!...and she comes up crying and just balling in tears, she couldnt even talk she was crying so bad....and anyways she was like yeah "i'm haveing problems at my house and for those of you who dont know me, i live in palmdale but when i'm school i come down to live with my grandma and go up there for the weekends...and yeah its becoming a problem and i was supposed to be on a flight today  to UTAH but i'm gonna leave tomorrow morning and i just wanted to say i love you all and i'm gonna miss you!"SSOOO, by this point i was cryong, it was so sad, everyone was crying(mostly, but not all cuz not a lot of the girls like her)and her cuzin MARLENE, she was balling so hard...anyways, they cried like the whole practice and it was so sad...THEN i got up to MARLENE the next day and i wa like oh did JANET leave yet and you know wut she says...."SSHHH, DONT SAY NOTHING BUT SHES NOT REALLY GOING TO UTAH SHES JUST CHANGING SCHOOLS!!!!!"- ohmy god i was lik that fuckin bitch, how could she betray everyone like that and be all FAKE and DRAMA!!!!

thats fuckin rediculous aint it.........

well, luv u all, and i really miss VNHS-CHEER!!!!im for sure coming back for my senior year, and the faculty at s.f told me that van nuys isnt be track school next year so HORRAY!!!luv ya, peace

On this dark but summery morning,

A true lessen, I have been taught,

Shall a relationship survive,

Without trust, or truely shall it not.

If one can turn back time,

To fix the mistake she has done,

Then this lonely life of mine,

Shall be only love, laughter and fun.

I've tried to prove my love,

And gave him all I had,

But still he is yet to trust me,

 God, tell me, will my life remain forever sad.

His bitter words,

Have broken my empty heart,

 God, tell me, if he can not trust me,

Are we left only to be apart.

All I ask of you my love,

Is that you trust my every word,

Because a life without your love,

 Sadly but truely would be awkward.

I have plans to save us,

Because a sad heart, i wish to not feel,

It is you I wish to be forever with,

Because my love for you, truely is real.

You've broken my lonely heart,

 And have left me nothing but shedding tears,

But baby trust me,

With you is where I'd love to spend, my life's remaining years.

I wish I can erase,

That dreadful January day,

Because it was that very dark night,

of ThE DaY I ThRoUgH My LoVe AwAy!!!